I went through my gallery today. I remember it being so much better than it is. A few of the pictures I still find myself being somewhat proud of...but the rest are just junk. Just cluttering up this account.

I realize now more than ever that I need to make a lot of changes in my life to improve it, y’know? I mean it. I need to figure out how to leave this...part? of me behind before it takes over and haha! Destroys my gentle spirit.

It’s going to be losing weight, doing exposures, dealing with the fact that yes, I take medications, losing weight, studying and getting my GED, and taking classes to improve both my writing and photography skills. Sad thing is, is I really can’t see myself doing any of those things with even the slightest bit of confidence because of my weight and, you better believe it! My hair. (Dun dun dunnnn.)

Why?

I like the idea of being my own model. I like not feeling the pressure of having to make friends (because, obviously, I just can’t have friends in real life), and not having to worry about hiring models when I don’t even have the money to live on my own yet!

I need to get my head out of biographies on Led Zeppelin, god damn it!

But I’m definitely going to teach myself how to work my own...over-priced...but lovely-as-all-hell camera before digging into any books about how to simply photograph whatever it is I’m interested in (which, right now, happens to be...well, I don’t know what to call it).

I went to Borders the other day and found a ton of books on Canon cameras, but silly me forgot the exact freakin’ name of my camera and couldn’t buy any. Not. Even. One. So, today, I figured out – as best I could – what camera I so lovingly own and...looked up books. All I have to do now is wait until I get enough money for a book and buy one! (But, just to be safe, I think I’m going to look for my cameras box and uhm, y’know...see what it says on there).

Anyway...